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Hey Bladder, Bladder

Jan 19
bladder lady

Isn’t she cute? Just don’t make her mad!

Something awoke the raging inferno inside my body, also known as my bladder. For a while now, my bladder has been more of a constant, burning and nagging pain, reminding me of who is still in charge, but not screaming the loudest on the pain scale.

She has been more of a persistent reminder that I need to watch what I eat, drink and do. A constant indication of how I am supposed to live my life…centered around her of course! But I have much relief from the nonstop bladder pain that I had at the onset of my diagnosis of Interstitial Cystitis (IC).  Praise The Lord!!!

Whatever it was that made her mad, soon became the obsession of my thoughts. What had I done to make her angry? Was it something I ate…maybe that lemon I had in my water?? Maybe lemon irritates my bladder, while it does not bother most, because it is alkaline. Maybe it was those two or three extra yoga stretches that I tried all in one day. Maybe, Maybe, Maybe. Maybe she just wanted to remind me who is the boss! Maybe I’m just losing my mind!!

When she is upset, she also brings along her friend “lower back pain.” This is a different kind of back pain other than my usual chronic back pain. This is a more severe pain. I thought I was in a “small” IC  flare…if there is such a thing?! However, despite the pain, I felt pretty good. I didn’t have the body aches and fever this time, so I’m just trying to take it easy as much as possible.

Sitting has always made my bladder pain hurt more, but most of what I do at work, volunteering at the church, teaching Bible study, etc. requires me to sit. So I try to stand and walk as much as possible, but it is not always easy.  Trying to figure out what caused her to flare up can be as frustrating and draining as the pain itself.  So I attempt to keep my mind focused on other things for the most part. I may never completely understand my bladder, and that is okay!

Dwelling on a problem is not going to make it better. In most cases it just causes stress and stress causes my body more trouble. Instead I am going to trust that The Lord is not punishing me. He is preparing me to trust His plan, not my pain.

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Interstitial Cystitis This is My Life Now

Oct 27

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I had a huge decision to make this week. It was very stressful.!!! As some of you may know I needed more hours at the computer store. I was working only a few hours a week doing the bookkeeping. But the hours were just not there for me at the beginning and I understood that. They in turn understood that I would be looking for other work in hopes of working two places with enough combined hours to pay my bills.

As it turned out, I had a job offer at a big, local car dealership  for a full-time position. I thought the people there would be great to work with and I felt like a part of their family after my job interview. You know how sometimes everything just clicks and it seems like a good fit??!! Well that is the way I felt!!

However, a few days later,  I was offered more hours at the computer store, since business has increased.  I knew that I would have more flexibility there so I decided to stay. I am making a lot less money than I was making before I was diagnosed with Interstitial Cystitis…about half as much. But as I told my Mama, this is my life now.

I am also making a lot less than I was offered at the car dealership, but I would also be working more hours. My decision was based on many factors. If I stay at the computer repair store, I will have more time to spend on praying, reading and studying my Bible. I will have more time to spend on my Small Group that meets at my house every Sunday night for Bible study. I will also have more time to spend with my Mama when she comes over to my house to help me clean every Friday morning. I will have more time to spend growing my Avon business. And I will not have to go straight to bed everyday when I come home from work with pure exhaustion from working eight hours. Also if I am working fewer hours I hope to feel like spending more time with my husband in the evening. All of these things are very important to me!!!

For me right now, I think I have made the best decision. Who knows what may happen later on in my life, but for now, I have faith that God will watch over me; take good care of me and bless me. And I pray that I am a blessing to those I work with and those that I have contact with on a daily basis.

I have had the burden of seeking employment for months now. This song is about laying down your burdens…we all have burdens!! This song talks about letting go of your burdens; seeking His face, coming as you are and letting the rescue begin! I hope you will take the time to listen to this beautiful song by David Crowder. The lyrics are below.

“Come As You Are”

Come out of sadness
From wherever you’ve been
Come broken hearted
Let rescue begin
Come find your mercy
Oh sinner come kneel
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal

So lay down your burdens
Lay down your shame
All who are broken
Lift up your face
Oh wanderer come home
You’re not too far
So lay down your hurt
Lay down your heart
Come as you are

There’s hope for the hopeless
And all those who’ve strayed
Come sit at the table
Come taste the grace
There’s rest for the weary
Rest that endures
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t cure

So lay down your burdens
Lay down your shame
All who are broken
Lift up your face
Oh wanderer come home
You’re not too far
So lay down your hurt
Lay down your heart
Come as you are
Come as you are
Fall in his arms
Come as you are
There’s joy for the morning
Oh sinner be still
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal

So lay down your burdens
Lay down your shame
All who are broken
Lift up your face
Oh wanderer come home
You’re not too far
So lay down your hurt
Lay down your heart
Come as you are
Come as you are
Come as you are

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